I type and I backspace..

I don't know where to start from, my life almost ruined. It feels like a big slap. Now i smile but next, i sink into tears. I'm so tired crying over my feelings. Who is going to keep me safe from danger? Who is going to protect me from the one i love? Sometimes i feel like crying, sometimes i feel like shouting, sometimes feel like dying. Sooner or later, I will be mentally ill. Let it be, I'm used to it. But I still can't believe you're doing this to me, how dare you. Honey, for how much I love you, you're killing me.