Midnight now..

Just finished supper at Mac with sister, we were both hungry and decided to head down for food. And like the other days, crazy soccer fans were cheering the whole time while we're enjoying our meal. Like, we couldn't even have a peaceful meal. But, luckily the match ended around 12 and we managed to get a few moment of silence.

Hmm, love have not taken its toll on me. Don't worry people, I'm not down yet. I'd continue living life well and great as I know I'll meet better people in the future. So to people who are in the same situation as me, don't give up! We need to stay strong to enjoy our life, and of course to look forward to our future in meeting good people. We shouldn't be a weakling, :D

Although I still have my very unhappy moments, but I guess everything would be likely to fade away in time to come. I admit I still have feelings for Z and I love him very much. But, so what? I've already let go of him and our relationship. I really won't and I can't have him back anymore. But.. I don't deny, that at times I contradict myself by wanting him back again. Afterall, its been a long time, 1 year 3 months. You think it was an easy path for us? Nah, we had ups and downs like many other couples. But we had our very sweet time together as well. Really.
But who would ever understand how I feel? Or lets say, who could ever know how it feels to be me?

I kept everything you gave me not because I was greedy or I still wanted you back. Its because I cherish everything you gave me. And I love our past, I really do. Things you gave me reminded me of our past. And it also reminded me that people you love could actually be so cruel to you..

You said your ex was cruel. But what you did, was 10 times more cruel than her. Know why? Because you're a guy, and you have deeply hurt a girl who intensely loved you. I was innocent, I did nothing wrong. But, because of your cruelty, I was badly hurt. Badly..