My love
So my first kiss was lost to you.
And I never want anyone else other than you to kiss, or touch me.
People always say, I deserve the best.
But I wouldn't want, if the best isn't you.
I'll not grow tired of loving you, even if one day we won't get back together anymore. People ask why am I doing this, but this is just so unexplainable.
Love wasn't supposed to mean so much to me, but I guess it doesn't matter anymore.
You mean more to me, if you're happier like this; then I'll just look at you from faraway.
Nothing, but just looking at you and, loving you.
I just want you to be happy. Its good to see you happy after hearing what I said to you yesterday. Its a complete lie.
I told you I was doing fine and am going to forget about you, that I'll find myself a better guy.
Its all a lie, I'm typing all out here because I know you wouldn't read and then my lie would not be exposed.
I think I'm getting better at pretending. Pretending I'm fine, pretending I'm not loving. So much for pretending, in front of you. I'm sorry baby, but I did not want to lie, I just want you to be happy like this. Its all worthwhile.
And I never want anyone else other than you to kiss, or touch me.
People always say, I deserve the best.
But I wouldn't want, if the best isn't you.
I'll not grow tired of loving you, even if one day we won't get back together anymore. People ask why am I doing this, but this is just so unexplainable.
Love wasn't supposed to mean so much to me, but I guess it doesn't matter anymore.
You mean more to me, if you're happier like this; then I'll just look at you from faraway.
Nothing, but just looking at you and, loving you.
I just want you to be happy. Its good to see you happy after hearing what I said to you yesterday. Its a complete lie.
I told you I was doing fine and am going to forget about you, that I'll find myself a better guy.
Its all a lie, I'm typing all out here because I know you wouldn't read and then my lie would not be exposed.
I think I'm getting better at pretending. Pretending I'm fine, pretending I'm not loving. So much for pretending, in front of you. I'm sorry baby, but I did not want to lie, I just want you to be happy like this. Its all worthwhile.
posted by Jiaying at
4:01 PM
8 Comments:
As i read ur posts, it certainly remains me of mine. almost similar but definitely some diff, i guess we're the same, time didnt fade the love away instead it increases together with the misses. perhaps i know 70% of how u're feeling. all the best. cheer on
reminds*
jiayou is all i can say. mine is slightly longer like 4months and shes with my 6 yrs used-to-be-bestfriend. i lost both at a go :D so u're still better off i guess!
Hi MaL. Thanks (: I guess love may have given us so much pain and disappointments but it have also given us happiness at a point of time where we're so blessed to have (;
I never thought I'd end up in a situation like this - break up. As I always thought I understood my boy really well. But I guess, I was wrong. That was why, it caused so much hurts and heartbreaks that no single soul could ever imagine - being given up by the one you love.
:)
"That was why, it caused so much hurts and heartbreaks that no single soul could ever imagine - being given up by the one you love."
Cant agree more with what u had said.
indeed it's almost unbearable to be given up by someone u love so deep.
i've never thought my lovestory is almost like a drama series either.
rock on girl im sure u will get the key to release urself one day. he might be the key someone else or maybe just urself!
Me too, I'd never thought I'd end up with a broken heart. Its so much of a drama, isn't it?
The love we once had, has now turned into a past, a lie, or whatsoever.
So much for loving, and being loved.
I couldn't lie to myself, as I know love was present all along. I believe you feel the same too.
We couldn't lie, thats why we are still stucked here.
Yes, thankyou for your encouragement (:
yeap :) the story that they given up, the story that we continue writing on behalf of them and they are happily writing another story of them and another. @@. for now i guess im getting used to it. just randomly i will be reminded and tears will follow but yea its getting lesser i guess. so u can do it. heartbroken is for sure, but u must stay stronger everytime they attack u :)
Yes, just randomly when I see things that reminds me of him, and us. Emotions gather and everything became rather sad. Yet I still feel bit of happiness to know that we'd ever had this or came here before. But sadness overwhelms everything.
To be strong, how strong must I be? I hope sometimes he could understand that its kinda painful being strong, and fighting against him
Actually u're not fighting against him perhaps more like u're fighting with the memories of u and him. like i did. i do tear whenever i think about it but i got stronger each time. i go to blog and blog it out to make it another stage of reminder shes no longer with me. But yucks tell u what dont ever read back ur old post HAHA! it seriously kills. did a few times and it went uncontrollable.
People say move on, but to me its just getting used to not having her beside me anymore. 4months straight i nvr seen her again neither did i hear her voice. all base of memories i have with her as well as pics and neoprints.
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