Tick tock tick tock

Its 11.50pm on the clock now. Time is a cruel thing that will never stop for us. I know I've been stucked right here since months ago. Yet now, still being unable to move a single step.
Or maybe I took a step which I took so much courage to do so - to open myself up to others.
Yeah, it was never an easy task for me to perform.
To open up simply meant texting and talking to other guys except Z. Yup, it was not easy for me to do so as I was anti-social to almost all guys in the world except my family members and Z.
It wasn't easy to do so, yet I tried and am still trying.

For the past 1 year and 3 months, Z and me have succeeded in keeping our worlds shut to everyone else except the both of us. Simply said, both of us were faithful towards each other within these 15months spent together. We had never text nor went out with anyone of the opposite gender.
So now, it have probably became a habit of mine to ONLY talk and interact with him. To accept others in my life would be difficult. But at the end of the day, I'd still have to curb this habit of mine.

Well, just a random ranting and an empty talk. I doubt I'd ever be able to do so.
I'm still anticipating for his return. Since all he want now is freedom, I'd wait till the day he's ready to settle down for a serious relationship.